Options I didn't know I had

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Starting this particular post was quite stressful for me, considering my mind is all over the place and I am not able to bring my thoughts in check. It is safe to say that maybe we all have a few things we want to do and cannot because of the time and all the restrictions. I want to have a cup of Coldstone ice cream and with probably a delicious slice of chocolate fruit cake but well I don't have it so I am going to rant about that. Permit me.

Let me tell you about last week, it was not pretty, I was feeling unwell and I was too tired to do stuff I normally do like reading about something interesting, catching up on my studies,  getting ready to put up a blog post, I was just tired, extremely tired.
Then there was this disinterest for practically almost everything, I don't think I had the time to enjoy a good conversation with anyone, then there was a family squabble that has been resolved. In all last week was just one of those days that you want to pass by and pass by as fast as possible.

I saw a tweet, and it went like this, 'How I switch from this life is so amazing to what the fuck is going on still scares me' and it got me thinking a lot. Most times, these choices balls down to opportunity we have and the options we didn't know we have. 

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Honestly, things have been going fine and well and I am making the most of the opportunity that I find, but other times, I see an opportunity that was not there before and I had absolutely no idea that they were available and it makes it almost impossible to accept the situation I am in or helping a friend with a project I always wanted to start but I can't right now and I am just waiting for the end of the pandemic and I feel so torn. I am like what is going on really.

It leads to a whole lot but at the end of it all, it is frustrating because I become blinded to the progress I have made, the efforts I have put in and how far I have come. The reason I am putting up this rant made up of my incomplete thought is that deep down, I know I am more than all this, I can do more if given the opportunity, and at the same time, I believe I am not making the most of all these. And it is messed up, really messed up.

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I have an announcement to make.
I would love to hear from you, my readers, what you are thinking of, how are you managing this times, what you want me to talk about, how my writing has helped you or inspired you or if you just want to ask me anything. 
Send me a message.

The Estherian 
theestherian@gmail.com


Comments

  1. UnknownJuly 13, 2020 at 12:01 PM

    Esteeee... This is nice

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  2. Olive NmesoJuly 13, 2020 at 1:25 PM

    Some days are like that ... I feel you

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  3. UnknownAugust 9, 2020 at 12:46 PM

    Sometimes I just wanna disappear ...n let certain times pass...n prolly watch them in outer space...lol

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