THE ESTHERIAN BLOG

source: Pinterest                     Wednesday would mark the beginning of the last half of the year 2020, and one of my reoccurring thoughts is the need to be me. I often find myself in situations and instances where I ask myself how I got there or what was my purpose in the situation. One of the things I would be working on is being intentional about me.  So as we are trying to make the most of a somewhat annoying year, this is a reminder and an encouragement to be intentionally you. Being intentional means doing things on purpose, deliberately or voluntarily and asking to be intentional about you is to be deliberate about yourself, to stop going with the flow, to break out from the need to conform and to see beyond how things appear to be. Now I am not trying to preach but instead, I am talking to myself foremost. Be intentional about Life         What are the reasons for you living your life? Why that job, that course, that friend, that journey and so on. It is easy to find onesel

Playful Panda presents, A Quarantined Collection           The quarantined collection comprises of 10 outfits; four floor-length evening/ asoebi gowns, two knee-length gown, one kimono robe, one kimono-inspired jacket, one short gown and one jumpsuit. Inspiration          The collection is basically a put together of outfits I would love to make and wear out for events but since I am in self-isolating, it helps to put down all the ideas on paper so as not to forget to try them out once I return to my everyday activity. Outfit 1 Off-shoulder fishtail gown with side peplum Outfit 2 Ankara evening gown over a cord lace underskirt with butterfly sleeves and plunging neckline Creative process          The main beauty of this collection is the ability to integrate different textures and designs into the drawings and I am most proud of the figure used in outfit 8. It is my favourite piece in the collection. Outfit 3 Kimono styled Jacket with floor-length sleeves Another thing I learnt in piec

I was going to start this post by discussing last Monday; how sad and broken I felt, how things seemed bleak and so out of control, how much the uncertainty of tomorrow was choking me but I am going to start by writing a bit about me.             I was never an optimist and I wouldn't consider myself a realist also. I had anxiety over every issue and always believed that things were bound to go wrong at one point in time. You should know that I had mastered the art of dealing with disappointment. I soon began to realize that I was never really happy even when things seem to be going right. I always looked for a way to cut it off and I became sad by default. I have a friend that once described me as emo. Don't get me wrong though, I kinda made people happy and I moved with happy people but I was just putting up appearances, playing a role and perfectly I must say.           In an attempt to understand what happiness meant and why I was never fully happy, I started searching, rea

source: Pinterest Prejudice (N): An adverse judgement or opinion formed beforehand or without knowledge or facts An irrational hostile attitude, fear or hatred towards a particular group, race or religion One question that has always been on my mind is how easy is it for people to hold up certain ideas about a group of people they have never met before. Anytime my mother generalizes a person's behaviour or when she says something about a group of people or that one time she refused to allow me to travel to Enugu because of some prejudice she has concerning the Igbo tribe. I always ask her how she was so are you about that. It is a general trait I understand that we tend to generalise our ideas of others based on what we have heard, hate that was passed down or fear of actually finding out that we are wrong. The most annoying thing I have heard since I started living in Enugu is that I do not behave like a Yoruba person. It is annoying because when I ask those people how many Yoruba

Today is the 1st of June, 2020. June, as we all know, is the sixth month of the year.  Some days ago, I got a message from a friend and it asked, 'What's happening?'  I just want to share how this year has been so far. 2020     This is the most usual year yet for me both generally and personally. The year started out with the Australian fire, the threat of WWIII, a pandemic -COVID 19-, a lockdown, a massacre in southern Kaduna, Nigeria, Police brutality in the USA, several other killings around the country and all in five months. This year has been sad.  This was the year that I thought was going to be my break out year, it was all happy and exciting for me and I was sure it was going to be my best year yet. I had plans you know, I was going to start a blog, get a sewing machine and teach myself how to sew, hopefully, start up a business, get good grades in school, be in that perfect relationship and have all my friends and I winning in everything we do.  *cues laughter*  T