THE ESTHERIAN BLOG

So every week, I get to put a pencil on paper and write something or sketch, sometimes I just doodle things that don’t in any way mean anything. I avail myself of the opportunity to create something that I can or cannot share. And I wear the badge of “Creative” as proudly as I can. And it is encouraging to know that anybody can be creative, and it is not limited to the very big or highly anticipated and appreciated things if we are being honest. For this episode of The Conversation Series, I decided to invite another Creative to have a conversation on what it means to create and how it feels balancing that with living.  Note: This conversation has been condensed and edited for clarity. Our guest today is quite a big person and I would like her to introduce herself. Hi everybody, my name is Zara. I am a medical student and also a YouTuber, you can say I am a medtuber. So what was your initial reaction to receiving the message, hey Zara, I want you to be on TCS. I was wowed and was like

And the moral of the story is; start when you are ready. Source: Pinterest I love clothes and everything that goes into making clothes, from the illustration/basic sketch to the fabric, the cutting to finally making the clothes. It is glorious, and even more, so is combining various clothes and clothing items into a fabulous outfit, and that is even better. There is this high that comes from doing all that, and that is why I am into fashion design. And the reason for this tidbit is to give you an insight into why I am telling you this story.  I took a gap year in 2017 and was an apprentice at a tailor's shop for a while. What I wanted more than anything was to get a sewing machine, so I did what any 17-year-old would do, save up for it. I saved up enough to get this really cute mini sewing machine, which to this day was a total waste of money. I did the best I could to make the sewing machine work, but I didn’t figure it out entirely, and I never made anything with it. I went on to

  Source: Pinterest I want you to do something, Picture a room, It can be white or pastel blue, Or it can just be anywhere that makes you calm. Picture a sofa, As comfortable as you can imagine, Then do something for me, I want you to take a seat. There is a reason I am inviting you to this space. I don't want you to just sit with me, I want you to sit with someone else too, I want you to sit with yourself. I want you to sit with your emotions, All the ones you have been trying to suppress, I want you to sit with your feelings, All the ones you have been running away from. I want you to become more aware of them, I want you to listen to what they have to say, I want you to pay attention to what they are telling you, I want you to confront them. I don't want you to head out of this space in a hurry, Especially if all you hear is silence, Or if it is uncomfortable. But maybe for a long time, You have not had the chance to be here. I am going to leave now, I have done my best to i