THE ESTHERIAN BLOG

Source: pexels.com (I) It is crazy the way things turn out. And it is refreshing at the end of the day when you settle into serendipity. I have been having conversations with myself, and I have been trying my best to be gentle with my soul. In all honesty, she needs it. (II) As often as I can, I try to take a walk through my memories and listen to the things I might have missed, I replay situations now that the emotions have drained out, and I review cases and scenarios now that the grip of anxiety has passed away, I try not to hold on way too tight to what should have been, and I am learning to love myself with grace and space, I am learning to love myself in the stillness that is left, with broken relationships and heartbreak. The funny thing is that in trying to love someone in the wake of their absence, I didn’t realize I refused to love myself for the way things turned out. (III) I try to dissect broken relationships and friendships, especially the ones that fell away in the past

Hello, It has been a while since I have been able to put something up here. I have been battling writer’s block for the past weeks, and I am happy to announce that block has been transformed into a stepping stone, of sorts. For one, it has helped me pass the need of having to write about “feelings and stuff”. Well, I have written something this week, and I hope you enjoy reading it.  Photo Credit: Fauxels Source: Pexels.com Romantic relationships seem to always follow the same pattern; you meet someone you are attracted to, you get to know the person, you fall in love and if you are lucky, you get married, have children and spend the rest of your life together figuring out the rest. If you are unlucky, the relationship sinks and you decide to try again. I am sure the way I put it doesn’t necessarily sound appealing, but that is the expected trajectory of romantic relationships. Although a lot of people luck out and have amazing relationships and marriages, the rest of us get to stay in