THE ESTHERIAN BLOG

What do you see when you look in the mirror? Do you see yourself, defined by your past mistakes, or the person you failed to be? Do you see the future, your most accomplished self? Do you find reasons to smile, or do you wish everything could just pass? Do you smile because you are aware that you are right where you are supposed to be and also on the way to something greater? Diana Smykova Source: pexels.com So I moved to a new apartment over the weekend, and I am so excited to finally be out of my former place. With the stress of moving and the frustration of having to deal with the carpenter fixing the shelves and other fittings, I still couldn’t keep the smile off my face. If you think I might have missed a part of this story, you are right. I started working on a post last week when I was supposed to do a check-in for October and also talk about the struggles of house hunting in Enugu state, but the piece wasn't coming together the way I wanted it to. So I gave up on it. But in

  Source: Pinterest I believe it is expedient to let you know that despite me saying times without number that I am aware that I am going to die someday, and I am accepting of the fact that I don't know when that might be, I believe I am more accepting of death than I am of living.  There is this funny conversation that comes up often between my friend and me, and it is one where I talk about taking a very long nap. I tell them that I am often too tired, and I would like to sleep for as long as I can and maybe wake up at the good part of life. You know, the part where everything finally makes sense. Although the last time we had that conversation, my friend told me point-blank, maybe the kind of sleep I am talking about is death, but he is not ready to die yet. He is scared of what happens next, and I am not. I am hopeful I end up in heaven by the grace of God. This is not today's story, though.  What will I say if one day I wake All of a sudden, I'm there at that gate? The