When It Was Intended To Hurt You
How do you begin to deal with an experience that was at your expense, and caused you pain? You are doing alright, unbothered about what happened or believe you have let go of the pain until it hits you like a truck on the highway, and you are stuck in that moment, waiting for it to pass because you can't deal with it yet, and it won't bother you if you survive it now. The thing you forget at that moment is that it comes around often, and you are going to feel a lot worse later. So, you have to decide, do you fix it now or do you wait? When you quiet all the noise and distraction, and you remove yourself from all the avenues of escape you have created for yourself, you are left with all you have; the pain, the tears, the regrets and the things done to you that were not in any way your fault. What do you do when you face that memory? How do you deal with something whose singular purpose was to hurt you? I am someone that talks about my experiences when I am trying to heal or w