How Do You See The World?

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I have a question and I will share the thought process that led to this question.

I was away for most of November due to a string of unfortunate events which led to me not having access to the internet. Not only that, I lost contact with almost everyone because I couldn’t access my Google account. I could only reach out to those I have their numbers memorized -my parents, those that tried to reach me via phone call and those I went looking for their contact info. I was also cut off from anything happening and general school/class information like fixed classes, online clinical conferences, and so on. 

For a while, I felt blind -like I was not seeing the world- so out of the loop, and I realized that one of the ways I relate with the world has been taken away from me. I was no longer sharing stories, laughing at memes, listening to other people’s stories. I was missing football matches -I think Chelsea is still on top of the EPL table. What is happening in Nigeria; is the Sit-at-home order in the East still effective? What about the YouTube channels I subscribed to? How is Therapy Season 2 going? What shenanigan is Falz up to? What about Alex Meyers and Matpat? I have not been called home skillet biscuit for a while, how is Kennie doing? Is D’Angelo Wallace back on YouTube? How is Dr Bill Bill? I am missing a lot from the CrazyER Faith series and TC Nation. I am aware that these things will remain on the internet forever -I guess, but I am not going to be a part of the immediate conversation, and that saddens me. Then it comes to learning new things, like random words, and getting information at my fingertips, I have been unable to do that. I am not writing down any new information because I am not sure where to confirm them. And for assignments and other school work, I have been forced to return to my textbooks and do the old fashion method of getting information.

I often complain of not being seen by the world, of being misunderstood, but now I get to talk about not seeing the world, at least not in the way I usually do, it feels like I have come full circle. Maybe it is good, maybe it is slightly less than good, maybe when I get back on WhatsApp, I will see how many messages I have to reply to, maybe it will be a lot, maybe no one reached out. And I know I will be alright. Zita asked me once how life is without social media, and here is my answer, quiet. It is going out of your way to finding out what is going on. It has given me time to reflect and focus on a lot of things, it has made it impossible for me to escape from anything. I have rewatched the final season of Castlevania and every other movie on my laptop. I plan to see The Marvelous Mrs Masiel again. I have to call Zita almost every day to know what is going on in class, and I can’t classify this experience as good or bad. Perhaps that is the problem with trying to say how I feel about this, I feel like I have to label it as something. So life without social media is just there. 

So here is my question; how do you see and by what means do you experience the world?

With Love,
The Estherian.
You can reach me at theestherian@gmail.com

PS: So I got a new phone yesterday and one of the most wholesome things I have seen in a while is the video of a musical tribute to Ryan Reynolds. I did shed a tear.




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