Welcome, 2022.

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Welcome (back) to The Estherian Blog.

It is a new year and so far so good, it has been going great.
I have not been up to much in this new year, and I am yet to find the student spirit that left me last year and choose to never return. But if you find her before I do, tell her not to bother coming back, I am doing well without her. 

This is not my first attempt at the new year post, but this is the one I am putting out because it is not too much. The other one was sort of emotionally exhausting, and it might not seem like the right way to start the year talking about the sad things, hopefully, I get to come back to that as the year progresses, and maybe I will not.  For some reason, it feels like I am starting this year with my feet already running.

I know I made plans for this year, but my plan for January is no plan. Aside from school which I have to show up at every working day, the podcast that I am going to start recording on Sundays, blog posts that I am going to be working on, the only other thing on my schedule is to do nothing. I am not taking up any leadership role, I am not networking, I am not going anywhere except the basic school and church, I think I have to go to the market to pick up sewing supplies, I am just going to remain here with myself and be still. January is going to be about me chilling with God. If I am not reading for school or prepping for anything, I am going to be sleeping. I don’t have the energy for anything else, and I know the year just started. 

I asked myself, how is this different from every other day of my life in the past year, and the difference is stress. I was always stressed out and tired which causes me to sleep a lot. Now I am going to be sleeping because I choose to. I don’t want to pile up a lot of things on my plate, I don’t want to do anything extra, and maybe the first step to being more is understanding less is more.

I want to be still, find opportunities to sit and walk with God this year, I don’t want to be busy this year. I want to be intentional about the things I do and change my pace to a more relaxed pace, to the perfect pace. There is going to be no pressure from others or myself, at least in January. And if you are like pressure makes diamonds and all that other stories guess we don’t need diamonds in January.

I put up two sewing projects for January, and I will share them on the blog when I am done. I have tests this January, but again, no pressure. I am going to be so laid back this January that I will be surprising myself. And the thought of doing that seems a bit rebellious. I have said a lot of times that the grind and hustle culture is not for me, and this year, I am going to start rejecting and working on any grind and hustle mindset I might have developed. 

One last thing and this is to January, just 31 days, please. The extra days you bring are not needed at all. 

So how about you? 
How are you starting the new year? Are there a lot of things to do, are you already busy? Are you just chilling?

You can reach me at theestherian@gmail.com. I will get back to you, not immediately though because I will not be going through my mail every day. Do take care of yourself.
With Love,
The Estherian

P.S. Last weekend I had to go out to get sewing supplies, and somehow exhausted myself because I was caught up with other things. I ended up sleeping for most of Sunday. But it is fine, it is just one slip up and who is counting. I had to remind myself, one day at a time and that hymn is playing in my mind as I am typing this. 


Comments

  1. Ngozi ZitaJanuary 10, 2022 at 11:58 AM

    There's no such thing as a perfect pace; the relaxed pace you think is best mayn't be sufficient for you, and the swift pace maybe too fast and not allow you enjoy the little things in life, so i feel instead of going at a "perfect pace", try striking a balance between a relaxed pace and swift pace; that way, you get things done sharply and also get time to enjoy the peace and pleasures in life.

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